My feelings for you were so strong
I thought that we would last for so long
The moments I was with you were the happiest in my life
But this pain that I'm feeling is as if I'm being stabbed with a knife
I can't take it any more I have to let go
My feelings are changing and I know that it shows
This isn't easy because I think I still love you
So many things are going on and I don't know what to do
I can't be with you while wishing I'm with him
I can't keep falling in and out of love and I can no longer pretend
I'm sick of never knowing if it's you or someone else
But I can't stay with you just because I don't want to be by myself
Me being without you seems like a sin
And I don't want to make the same mistake again
I know you love me but I can't do this any more
I don't want to turn my back on you and walk out the door
At times I think I still love you and at times I just want to say I'm done
But the worst part is that he means the world to me and to him I'm no one
I can't hurt you any more but I can't just walk away
And I can't go through this for another day
I know I'm not in love with him like I was with you
But the feelings he gives me are happy and new
He doesn't even know I exist but sometimes either do you
Maybe I'll flirt with your best friend while you're standing right there too
And no this isn't pay back for the times that you've hurt me
It's just something I'm going through and it's not easy
I know I'm hurting you now but it's killing me too
I hate going through this and I hate what I'm doing to you
I'm not in second grade anymore and I can't keep doing this
I feel so immature but I don't want to lose something That I know I will miss
I guess I should just end it now, get rid of these feelings I regret
Just so I can go after a guy that I just met
Maybe I don't know what love really is
All I know is that it's not this
So this is it, I'm done with you
I'm so sorry for what I've put you through
In the end I will probably wish I didn't do what I just did
But atleast now I won't have to keep my feelings hid
You said I broke your heart, left a big crack
And that you'll just walk away when I come crawling back
And when I realize that I still need you
You'll be needing someone else just like I did too
If that's the way you feel then it's really over forever
Never again will we be together
I leave you my last words, Maybe the last time you'll ever see my face
So this is goodbye, until we meet again in a better place
LIFE
These days things are changing
It seems like my whole life is rearanging
Little things that shouldn't bother me
Are eating me down to my core
It's as if I don't even know who I am anymore
The one thing that made me happy is now bringing me down
The music of our friendship is no longer playing any sound
Old feelings that should by now be long gone
Are once again playing that same old song
I hide these feelings behind my laughter and smile
But this can only last for a short while
Growing up is the hardest thing for me
I wish I was a child again when life was so easy
I'm losing so many friends and losing my faith
I'm intimidated by life and it's smacking me right in the face
I never used to care about what people thought of me
And suddenly all I care about is what other people see
Others would ask me for advice when they had questions running through their head
But now I'm the one with all of the questions instead
Life is going by so fast
It's like a race and I'm finishing last
It's scary to think that tomorrow is today
That at one point my life is bad and at another it's okay
But I've got people that I love to help me get through it all
The ones that don't make me feel so small
They're the only thing that keeps me going in life
The people that help me and give me advice
There are many names for these people
My gaurdian angels, my teachers, or even my leaders
But I like to call them my best friends
They always stick by my side through the thick and the thin
They give me courage, love, strength, and ambition
And whenever I need them they are there to listen
Life is tough but we'll get through it together
We're always going to be friends, forever
We'll be there to catch each other whenever we fall
We'll be there with each other through it all
I thank them for teaching me the meaning behind the word forgiving
But I most of all thank them for helping me to just keep on living
Little Things
It's the little things that make life so great
Times when you know something happend because
of fate
Those warm and fuzzy moments that aren't even
a big deal
Those kind of times that at least once in life
everyone should feel
Whether it's a moment that when you think back
on it your heart beats faster
Or a moment that brings back all of the laughter
They are always something that makes you feel
good inside
One of those things that feelings can't hide
Like when you were five and you found your mother's
mascara
And how she said she was mad but still had to
get her camera
Or the time when you told your little brother
to eat glue
You'll never forget that disgusted look on his
face when he actually listened to you
That talk your dad had with your very first date
You were so embarrassed when he told him that
he would regret it if you were home late
Then there was the time your sister invited your
secret crush over on your birthday, just trying to be clever
You never admitted to your sister that that was
your best birthday ever
That day you missed the bus and chased it all
the way to school
And for about five seconds no one in 5th grade
considered you cool
You remember fighting with little jimmy and pushing
him down on the ground
But you'll never forget when he kissed you on
the merry-go-round
Your first day of college, the first time you'd
ever seen your father cry
And your mothers only words were you grew up
so fast, with a sigh
The very first time you tried beer when you were
22
And when you told your mom she tried to ground
you
How you met your very first love, the one you're
still with today
He almost ran you over with his car and his first
words to you were get out of the way
The first time you heard your little girl say
i love you
You cried because that meant so much to you and
she had no clue
It's little things like that that make life the
best
Sometimes It's not always great like this but
thinking back on these moments will give you a rest
From all the hustle and bustle, so go back to
your childhood
Go back to all of the good
Go back to your
home town, have a lemonade stand, or play in the leaves
These things will make you feel good and care
free, even if they are only memories...
WAITING
Feeling light headed, drifting away, wanting to tell you what I need to say
You make me so happy, I swear I'm floating, going through the day always knowing
You're going to be there, even if It's not for me, I'll wait for you forever, patiently
Staring at the sky, thinking of you, sleeping at night, dreaming of you
I've never felt this way before, every second I feel it more and more
I wish that you could feel this even half as much, I want you to want me, I'm hoping for luck
Smiling, nervous, hear the laughter, I look at you and my heart beats faster
You are the spitting image of life with out sadness, of the heavens above, and the sound of
children's laughter
You are the sun rising across a sketched pink sky, the fire extinguisher of hell, the only one
that makes it all right
It doesn't matter what you say, I needed you yesterday, and I need you today
I'll need you tomorrow, and the next day too, the same old routine, I'll be waiting for you
Whether you feel the same or It's going to be never, I'll be here waiting for you, forever and
ever
Sometimes
Who defines love
How do you kno when it's real
I don't care how young I am
This is how I feel
He makes me feel happy, special, and free
And I swear he's the only one in the world for me
What I'm feeling right now makes me go crazy
Whenever I'm around him everything gets hazy
I was never really sure if love was true
Until the day I fell in love with you
Now I know that love is real
And nothing in the world can change how I feel
I know I've got great friends and a great family
But sometimes it seems like you're the only one there for me
Sometime's it seems like you're the only one I can trust
You don't backstab me like others or leave me alone in the dust
Sometimes it's as if things aren't always what they seem
And sometimes I feel like I'm living a dream
Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like without you
I don't know what would happen to me or what I would do
Sometimes I feel jealous, mostly of my best friends
And then it makes me wonder when it's going to be the end
Sometimes I think about how it would be
If you were with her, instead of with me
Sometimes I think that our love won't last long
But then you reasure me that our love is strong
Sometimes I wonder if I deserve you
The things that I'm feeling, do you feel them too
Sometimes no one else understands how I feel
And the only explanation I have is that it's real
What we have, is special and rare
Whether anyone else sees it, I don't care
You are my first love and maybe my last
I promise that I will never put you in the past
Throughout my life I will think of you
Everywhere I am and in everything I do
Even if we are not always together
The memories of us will stay with me forever
But until that day comes the only thing left to do
Is to say those three special words
I love you
..-For the first person i ever loved
Saved
On the outside I'm alive, free, and smiling
But on the inside im empty, rotting, and dying
No one knows these secrets that lie beneath my skin
No one knows what im feeling deep down within
I have not a friend, a love, or even an enemy
I've got no no one but my self
And I'm not enough company
So here I stand
Knife in hand
Ready to let it all go
The end is coming
And nobody knows
Just as the knife rises to my throat
I find a note to myself that my mother wrote
"Although I don't always show it
I love you more than anything
And if anything ever happend to you
Then that would be the end for me"
Tears filled my eyes as I read the note
And I threw the knife down away from my throat
Suddenly my fears they all dissappeard
I dropped to my knees as a strange comfort appeared
I couldn't see him
But I knew he was there
For I felt him all around me
and I knew that he cared
I knew it was him who sent that note as a sign
That right here and right now wasn't my time
This feeling wasn't new though
I'd felt it before
That time I'd got lost
But now it meant so much more
It was him who made me put down the knife
This is the story of how Jesus Christ saved my life